Cyber Bullying

I've just had my first encounter with cyber bullying with my daughter.  Normally I think Cyber bullying isn't that big of a deal, but I realized, just now, that it kind of is.  I thought, ok, close your account, change your email or just don't respond.  But when people post stuff on boards on things like Facebook - it is out there, and you can't take it back.  You can reply, you can defend yourself, but it will always be there for you to see, for the whole world to see.

I am so mad right now that I am literally shaking.  I don't know if I should stick my head into it, but I guess it's too late, because I already did.  You know when you were little and your Mom or Dad stuck their nose into stuff like that, they embarrassed the hell out of you and sometimes made it worse.  Well I wrote some stuff on my daughter's page, with her sitting beside me, and I didn't hit the enter key, she did.  I hope I didn't make it worse, but if I ever see the kid that said these things, you will have to hold me back from strangling him.  I don't care if it was a "joke", that kind of stuff isn't funny.  Kids like that are such a$$holes, I'd like to have a talk with their parents and see if they know what their kid is up to, and if they even care.

I am not overprotective, I think, but I do watch what my kids do. I see them at school, I know their friends.  If they do something that I think is not ok, I will hear about it.  I CARE about my kids and what they do.  What kind of impression they are making on the world and don't think that I won't kick their a$$es if they are not acting appropriately.

This goes back (AGAIN) to the parents.  Where the hell are they?  Do they even care about the offspring that they let lose into the world?  Well I do, my kids will grow up to be responsible, intelligent, kind, caring, polite, helpful adults that will make the world a better place no matter what they do.  I love my kids and refuse to raise a bunch of (pardon my french) little assholes.

Those other parents, well, have fun visiting your kids in jail.

Hiatus....ish

I am not going on hiatus, but I just know that I am going to be blogging less over the next few weeks, to all summer!  Hopefully it will be a nice hot summer and I will be busy outside in my garden, at the beach, anywhere outside.  I am not just up and leaving, but I am going to be so busy and I don't want to just leave the blog hanging.

I have a small bit of updates, I hit just over 20km/hr last night in a sprint at my game!  I was so happy to see that!  Next goal is 22km/hr.  I don't know if I will ever get to 32km/hr like my husband, but I'll keep trying!  AND, I have officially lost 19 pounds!!!  I know it's not 20 and that's when people usually celebrate, but that will be next, and I'll celebrate that one hugely!

Right now I feel a bit pukey and I'm not sure why.  I think I'll take a gravol and go about my business.  It's a day off...which means I have to run errands.  But tonight is a real night off, which means I will do laundry, but I can do it in my jammies and not have to leave the house.  I was out in the rain for 3 hours last night at my daughter's game (1-1 tie, yay her) and my game - (1-0 for us.  Yes, we rock).  I played like crap, but it happens.  At least I ran fast and didn't fall down.  It's the little things that makes me happy!

If you miss me while I am on hiatus..ish, go outside and think of me!

I'm getting my own office!!

The school has finally decided that it is time for me to get my own office!  I have been at the school so much lately, 3 full days last week, 2 days this week.  When will the madness end?  Oh, yeah...June 28.  The school has not yet offered to pay me but I do get my own space.  Ok, maybe not a "space", but an area where the kids know that I will be, and the teachers too, for when they need me.  Maybe area is too grand of a word.....essentially I am getting a corner...... in the hallway......where I can just stand until I am needed.  I can just stand there, face to the wall, reading my emails from all the teachers that need my assistance.

Never mind, it's not that good of an offer.  I will refuse the hallway corner and just do my own thing until they call, text, email me, or hunt me down in person to do what they need.

I have to admit, I have done some pretty cool things this year with the school.  I got to go to Science school for a week with the Grade 3's, a fancy French restaurant with the Grade 7's, I chaperoned a concert and a play, planted flowers and pulled weeds, made clay, took pictures and a whole bunch of other things.  That was just the last 2 months, all the other things I have done the rest of the year has been placed some where in my brain that I don't have access to right now.

I am not complaining, I do love to be at the school, with my kids and their friends.  They all STILL think I am cool too!  Take that dummies from my high school!  I am totally cool now!  Side story - I was at my husband's soccer game a few weeks ago and he found me after the game surrounded by a bunch of 7-12 year old boys.  They thought I was cool too!  They all wanted to talk to me, I felt like a celebrity!

I guess now that I am all grown up, coolness takes on a whole new meaning.  I do get to lecture all the kids that come my way.  I spoke to a whole bunch of the Grade 7's about dating and how unnecessary it is.  One of the Grade 7 boys is a big fan of mine, ok more than one, but this one in particular makes my daughter jealous because he'll talk to me and not her!  It's not my fault!  I command attention!

In this rare minute of calm before the next shit storm happens, I can sit back and be happy about my new found coolness and relish in the fact that finally, finally, the junior high boys like me!

I have found my place in life

I think I always kind of knew this, but over the last few years, I have really begun to accept that my place in life, is exactly where I am right now.

I don't need to be working, I don't need to be doing anything that I am not already doing or not wanting to do.  My place is at home with my kids, where ever my husband needs me, at the school with my kids and other kids, on the soccer field with my team, on the soccer field with my daughter's team, running, being around for my sister and her family, and being with my friends.

I sometimes thought that I needed a better purpose in life, but what better purpose than the one that puts me in a place where I can affect so many people in such a good way?  What would a job give me?  Nothing that I need.  I get plenty of socialization, I don't need the money - what my husband makes is just enough to keep us where we are, and I don't need more that than.  A sense of worth?  I've got that too.  I volunteer so much time at the school and with soccer, I have a huge sense of worth.  I feel it every time a kid waves at me at school, I feel it every time one of those kids knows my name and asks me for help, or just talks to me. I feel it every time a kid gets hurt on the field and I am there to pick her up.

I am just so thankful to be where I am.  Some days aren't this great, and I think, is this all there is? Laundry, cooking, cleaning.  But then I remember what I do on the other days and I remember, my place is here.  I can help my friends, I can help the kids, and that makes me feel just great .

I was at a volunteer sign up post yesterday and out of the 400 people that showed up to the BBQ, I got 2 people to sign up and volunteer.  I wasn't surprised, but I was still disappointed.  But then I thought to myself, that is why I am here.  That is where I make the difference.  A lot of those parents don't care what their kids are up to at school, but I do.  They don't know that their kid had a bad day, but I know, and I was there to try and make it better.

I can't save the world, but I can make a difference.  I made a tri fold for the event listing what needs to be done, and why it is important.  It hit me, that's what I want to do.  It's not just a thing to do right now while I'm not working, it's what I always want to do.  I want to be that Mom that everyone knows and talks to.  I want to be that Mom that bandages someone else's child's knee.  I want to be that Mom that hands out hugs to anyone that needs one.  I want to be that Mom that my own kid thinks is amazing.  It's what I am good at.

Gandhi once said, "The best way to find yourself, is to lose yourself in the service of others." 


That's my plan - and I have found out so much about myself, and I'll always be glad that I am able to do exactly what I am doing.