I was truly upset when I was cut from that soccer team. Even though I KNEW I wasn't good enough to be on a premier team, I was still upset. I thought about the whole soccer thing, did I really want it or did I want it because I thought I should do it? But then I realized that I wanted it for me, something to call my own. Something to be part of. So I sent out a bunch of emails to some contacts and I am happy to report that I have found a team! Again. But this is the real thing. I have my card, I'm registered and I have my name on the team roster! I swear that was the most exciting thing! My name, on a team roster. I went to practice with my new team and I just felt so strong, powerful and alive! I ran, I sweated, I kicked, I rolled my ankle and got right back up again. I loved every second of it. It felt right. I can't believe it took me this long to discover sports.
Everyone needs something to belong to, and I hope I have found my place. (Aside from my adoring husband and wonderful kids) Something that is just for me. I can't wait to have my family watch me from the sidelines and cheer me on. And an added bonus...soccer socks go up so high, I never have to worry if I've shaved!!
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Rejection sucks
The topic of today is rejection and the fact that it sucks. It doesn't matter what kind of rejection it is, whether it's a friend who isn't as good of a friend as you thought, or being cut from a soccer team that you knew you weren't good enough for anyway. Rejection is what happens when you put your self out there at the mercy of other people. It's so hard to put yourself out there in the first place, but you do it. You do it to join a team, get a job or make new friends. And I tell you, it doesn't get any easier as you get older. In fact, I think it may be even harder.
As a kid, you put yourself out there because it's fun to try new things. You get rejected from time to time, but it's not so bad because there's more stuff to try, more people to talk to. As you get a little older (I'm talking even 8), you realize that it's harder because, at one point, you've probably been rejected and know what it feels like now. Then, you get even older, say 35. You KNOW what it feels like to be rejected and sometimes you feel like you try, you put yourself out there over and over again, and you get rejected, over and over again. It hurts. It makes you angry or want to cry. Why does this keep happening? You feel so low, because you've had the high of that something new that you want, and when it's not there anymore, you come crashing down.
So what do we do? Do we just give up and stick to what you already have? Well you could. But would that be any fun? What about those things that you might be missing if you just tried a few more times? What about that one person, that if you put yourself out to them, they could be a great friend. Or if you try one more to time to a different team, you might just find what you need. So I guess my only option here is to pick myself up, wipe away the tears and try again. As much as it hurts, I have to. I'd hate to think of what I might miss if I don't. And on that note, I'd hate to see what I wouldn't have, if I hadn't tried in the first place.
I think we are all looking for something, we are all scared to do it and we all feel alone sometimes. But isn't that exactly why we should keep trying?
As a kid, you put yourself out there because it's fun to try new things. You get rejected from time to time, but it's not so bad because there's more stuff to try, more people to talk to. As you get a little older (I'm talking even 8), you realize that it's harder because, at one point, you've probably been rejected and know what it feels like now. Then, you get even older, say 35. You KNOW what it feels like to be rejected and sometimes you feel like you try, you put yourself out there over and over again, and you get rejected, over and over again. It hurts. It makes you angry or want to cry. Why does this keep happening? You feel so low, because you've had the high of that something new that you want, and when it's not there anymore, you come crashing down.
So what do we do? Do we just give up and stick to what you already have? Well you could. But would that be any fun? What about those things that you might be missing if you just tried a few more times? What about that one person, that if you put yourself out to them, they could be a great friend. Or if you try one more to time to a different team, you might just find what you need. So I guess my only option here is to pick myself up, wipe away the tears and try again. As much as it hurts, I have to. I'd hate to think of what I might miss if I don't. And on that note, I'd hate to see what I wouldn't have, if I hadn't tried in the first place.
I think we are all looking for something, we are all scared to do it and we all feel alone sometimes. But isn't that exactly why we should keep trying?
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