What to do...

Wow, I think I may have to change the blog name from practicalpam, to what the hell am I going to do with my life! It seems to be the trend....what do I want to do...what can I do? I have a job interview this afternoon - I don't really want to work, but I feel like I need to make a change to get out of this rut. Maybe that change will spark something in me and I can decide what I want to be when I grow up.

Do I want to do something with photography, do I want to write, do I want to dance with the Alberta Ballet? Ok that last one is just not going to happen. Besides, I have enough foot problems as it is without adding pointe shoes into the mix!

I know I should be happy and content. I don't HAVE to work, I don't HAVE to do anything I don't want to do. Thanks be to my husband! But that leaves me floundering! I have always done what needs to be done. Now, all that needs to be done is the laundry and the dishes! Is that enough for me? Well let's see, I'm still complaining, so I guess not!

What to do, what to do. Some might envy my position, but being here isn't as grand as I once thought. Left alone with my thoughts, left alone blowing in the wind - it just isn't helping me decide. My biggest problem is I wish someone would come along and say - You should do this, here's how to do it! But then I'd still be incapable of deciding what I "want" to do. I need to find a passion and a way to let that passion out. So until then, I will waffle, and maybe take a job.