New Goals

When I was 20, I made a list of goals that I wanted to achieve within the next 5 years. It took me just about the right amount of time to achieve those goals...and I was happy. Not totally happy overall, but at least pleased that I had achieved some things that I thought were worthwhile. Its been 10 years or more since I made that list and I think about it from time to time. I don't have any goals.

Yes, I'd like to be a better soccer player, a better Mom, more organized, more fit, less jiggly, but I've never really written those things down and made them goals that I would like to achieve. As a side note, I should mention that the original list I made had "lose 20 pounds" on it. That was the only goal that I didn't meet. Instead I packed on 40, at some points more, and I have been there ever since.

Looking at the list I just made, maybe it's time to get some hot pink paper out and make those real goals. They are good things to do and very worthwhile. I do not have any career goals at this time because I am a kept woman, and very happy and content being that. Content may not be the right word though. Maybe indulgent, frivolous, entitled...those may be more accurate. Maybe that's what my problem is. I am a bit wayward, without a schedule, without guidelines in my life. Yes I work out, I'm a good Mom, I try to be organized, but maybe if I started with those goals, they would lead to more goals. Yes, I realize that I am just writing out loud...if you will.

Ok, so that settles it. I will make some real goals, some ways to achieve them and that might just be the start of something. I always have an excuse it seems. This week it's the sleep study, which is tomorrow night. I am a bit nervous, mostly about what the heck am I going to wear to sleep in, especially since someone will be watching me all night. The sleep study takes up tomorrow night and most of Wednesday, so I kind of lose a day. And I'm tired, which is why I am going to the sleep study, but that is my main excuse for everything. I'm too tired to make healthy choices, too tired to tidy up, too tired to make a list. I am, surprisingly, never too tired for a soccer game or the gym, and yet I am still jiggly. Is it wrong to put this list off until Thursday? I need to get my ass in gear, make some plans and do them. If I do that, then I can plan around all my plans! Do you see how unorganized my brain is??

I need to take a few minutes, get my brain focused and make a list. I need to make the goals and achieve the goals so I feel like I am doing something with my life and not just floating on the breeze accomplishing nothing. I think I need a life coach!