It's been a long week

I have been running around like crazy since Monday morning, just waiting for this week to be over.  I've been busy every day, all day and it's really taking its toll on me.  I have a very rare afternoon off right now and I am not sure where to start from here.

Yesterday was brutal, I woke up exhausted, I took 2 pills in the morning and one in the afternoon, and I still needed a nap after school.  It doesn't help that I have been up late very night doing stuff that needs to be done, and I haven't been getting enough actual hours in bed, so probably not near enough sleep.  I am hoping to catch up this weekend, if anyone wakes me up before 8:30 or 9, I might just go postal!

All week I have been doing the things that I haven't been able to get around to for the last, I don't know, year?  The more I remember, the more I remember that I have forgotten!  I finally got blinds for the master bedroom ordered - it's a good thing too - the curtain rods are literally falling out of the walls!  I know, that's just sad and so very trashy!

I have been at the school a lot the last week, as usual, but it's gotten to the point that I am angry!  Not about being at the school, I love that.  I love being with the kids and seeing what they are doing.  What I am mad about is the other parents that are NEVER there!  Where the hell are they all?  I get it, so people work full time.  Oh wait, I used to too, and I still did the reading program at the school with my daughter. I know people are busy...oh wait...I'm busy too!  I may not have a job, but I have a lot of stuff to do.  Between taking care of the house and the kids, and the finances, I also volunteer a lot, I go to the gym, play soccer, drive to soccer, coach soccer, I help out my friends, I have tons of doctor appointments all the time, and .....wait for it.....I have a freaking sleep disorder so I am exhausted all the time!  So there really are no excuses for those deadbeat parents!

Some of those parents just can't be bothered to parent their kids at home, why the hell would they want to hang out with them and be a part of their school life.  And trust me, if you are an uninvolved parent, it shows.  Those are the kids in grade 3 that are using the F word (and unbelievable the C word) at school and saying them to grade 2 students.  Those are the kids that have crap in their lunch every day, those are the kids that are the bullies, the sluts, the ones with self esteem problems.  I don't blame the kids, I blame the useless parents.  I am NOT the perfect parent, far from it.  But I am involved and I am present.  And let's face it, my kids adore me, so I must be doing something right.

So you see, it's been a long week.  I am cranky, I am mad and ranting about things I can nothing about, and I am soooo tired.  I also look like hell this week - awesome.

There's my rant for today - no doubt you've seen this rant before, and I am sure you will see it again.  Other than this being a brutal week, things are still looking up.  I do feel like I am on the right track with the sleeping issues.  I had almost a full week of being awake, I am sure I can make that happen again.  I really liked it too - I did get a lot done!  Life is great, I can't complain, even though I do anyway!  I feel crappy right now, but I know it won't last.  I am still hopeful, happy and always learning and growing.  My next step?  Learning how to say NO!