Grandparents

Last night I lost my Grandma. This was expected and she was ill for some time. I knew that this time was coming and I didn't think that it would make me hurt as much as it did. Losing her forever made me think so much about all the things that she used to do for me.

Whenever I had an issue and I had to "run away from home", I always went straight to her house. She always had raspberry juice and a head of lettuce waiting for me. That and a big hug. She was always sweet to me and made me feel so loved. I have missed her for a very long time. She had Alzheimer's and had forgotten me quite some time ago. But that didn't mean that I forgot about her. She was a lovely woman, sweet, caring and kind. She always had something waiting for us grand kids when we came to visit. The paper dolls, Woman's World that she had already read and we could cut out stuff from it. She let me take naps on her couch and pick raspberries in her yard. She called me her sausage bean and made the littlest things fun. She had A&W baby mugs that we would drink from. Anyone that knew her, loved her.

I loved going out with her because everyone that knew her treated me so nicely. They gave me treats simply because I was Vi's grand daughter. She was very well known in our town, she worked at A&W and the drugstore and seemed to know everyone where ever she went.

She told us crazy stories about when Uncle Roger and Uncle Dennis painted the chicken's green. She told me about how I was like a cat because of my green eyes. She loved me unconditionally and I miss her.

Losing her reminded me that I have now lost all of my grandparents and what a lonely place the world is without grandparents. They are like parents that give you chocolate for breakfast and let you do crazy things that your parents won't. They don't care about your grades, how messy your room is, or who you are hanging out with. They just care about you and want to hold you and tell you that they love you.

I really didn't think that her death would be so gut wrenching for me. I knew it was coming, I thought I had prepared myself, but I can't stop crying as I write this.

I love you Grandma. You will always be remembered by me. You will always be missed and loved. Every time I smell moth balls, I will be reminded of you and I will take that moment to remember you and how much you loved me.