Something that pisses me off

I hear this all the time, I have to lose weight to do this (insert activity here), I never could have done that when I was heavier. I need to to lose weight to be pretty, popular, better, blah, blah, blah. Quoted from Weight watcher's magazine - "....and how I will dress to hide myself, ....I never would have had that experience if I hadn't lost the weight."

Then I get to the other spectrum, I read an article about a lady who was a motivational speaker and was very overweight. She went around telling people to love themselves a they were. One woman in her audience asked her how she could possibly be healthy at that weight.

What I want to know is, what the hell? Does me being over weight make me unhealthy? Unable to do fun things, experience joy, exercise regularly???? I say no.

I know this for a fact. I see the doctor every year for my annual exam and I am in perfect health. Yes my weight may lead to issues in the future, but as people age, aren't we all at risk of something? Right now I am at the peak of health.

I also exercise regularly, in fact, I just ran the hill by my house three times today. How could I possibly do that while being fat? Well lets see, I put on my shoes, and I just run.

I am very happy in my life, I do all sorts of fun things. I can rock climb, I do obstacle courses in the sky, I play soccer, I run and go to the gym. I wear really cute bathing suits and look hot in them. Does being fat stop me from doing anything? Well wearing size 5 jeans yes, but anything that is important to me? Nope.

I just get so sick of all that shit out there that says we have to be thin to be happy. I say that you have to be happy first and then everything else will fall into place. It's like those people who get boob jobs. If you were happy before the boobs, then the boobs will just make you look a bit better to you - and that's great. If you were not happy, and had low self esteem before, guess what, bigger boobs don't come with self esteem! Losing weight does not automatically increase your self esteem either. I know lots of skinny women who don't have half the self esteem that I do.

Now you may ask, why do I have such good self esteem? Well who the hell knows! I just worked on it for years, fake it until you make it, I say, and it got to the point that my self esteem just can't be shaken. I've been through a lot in my life and really hard times just a few years ago, and my self esteem is at an all time high. I like who I am, I like how I look, I love to dress my body and look nice. I feel sorry for those people who can't get to where I am. But I know that it is possible.

I've had low self esteem, very low. People have to stop looking around them and comparing themselves to other's. I may not be a doctor, or a fashion designer, I can't build space ships and wear size 0 jeans. Big deal. I found what I am good at and I do it. I like what I see in the mirror, I like the example I am for my children, I am a good and honest person. If that's not enough for some people...if I have to be skinny to be liked by people, well then I say, piss on them. I don't need people like that in my life. I am happy just the way I am. Now if I do happen to lose weight, great, but if I don't, I not going to die wishing I had been thinner.