I have to admit, I've been getting some stuff done. Maybe it feels like I'm not because those things I have been getting done have been on my list for a VERY long time! I called Enmax....2 months after my contract expired. Ooops. They didn't care, I pay my bill, they charge me whatever they want. Now I don't have to call them again for 5 years! That is my kind of conversation. Oh good to hear from you, talk to you in 5 years!
I'm not anti social (much), I just find that too many people want my attention far too often. It's no wonder I hide in my house!
Is that abnormal? Most people want to be popular, I just want people to leave me alone! I think I've just gotten into the habit of saying yes...ok, I KNOW I've gotten into the habit of saying yes all the time. I really need to stop that and remember that my time is very valuable. It's all I have really. And I give it away! Well no more. I have to remind myself everyday that I can say no, and I have to keep myself calm instead of worrying about who will ask me to do what next. Read it slowly, I swear that sentence makes sense!
There are a few things that I like to offer myself up for - school stuff, soccer, coffee with people I actually like and want to spend time with. I've gone to 2 parties in the last 2 months and had a great time, because I actually wanted to be there. Normally I dread those things. I drove an hour and a half just to see my sister to go to a craft show. Totally worth my time!
I played up for the Premier soccer team last night - again, worth it. We did get our asses handed to us, 8-0, but it wasn't because of me! The other team is just that good. I told that team to call on me anytime. They even thanked me for coming! I'm sorry, but playing up for a team like that is huge for me. For them to thank me for being there instead of telling me that I suck - makes me feel pretty damn good! I was even told I played well! I scoffed at that, but I was assured that I did well and that I listen. That's a huge pat on the back for me!
I have a huge "to do" list and I guess I am working my way slowly through it. I think that I might be able to paint my master bedroom finally. I bought the paint at least 6 months ago! I had it checked, it's still good to use. I've been getting rid of crap, I still have a ton of crap to get rid of. I've gotten rid of a bunch of my clothes because they are WAYYYY too BIG!!!!! I have organized things and made appointments. So what if I take a day off here and there, I deserve it! (if you see my husband, remind him that I do deserve it!) I shovelled the walk already today too. I told my husband that with all the shovelling I have to do, there's no way I could ever get a job! He laughed....
It might sound odd that I have to remind myself of things everyday.....you can say no, you can take a day off, you don't have to do everything all the time. I guess I just get caught up worrying about everyone else that I forget about what is important to me. I'm not dumb, I'm just super forgetful. I'll just have to set up some reminders to myself to remember all that.
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