Merry Christmas!!!

It's December 24 and I am ready for Christmas! Thank goodness I am. I did forget about 2 presents, luckily I remembered them this morning, so they too have been wrapped and put under the tree. The Christmas cookies have been baked and decorated, the gifts have been wrapped, the supper is being made and not by me! The house is clean, the tree is lit and I am ready to relax and enjoy the festivities.

I am in a good place right now. I have no anger or dislike for anyone, I am seeing all of my family in the next few days and I am looking forward to it. No really! I am! I feel good, I feel happy and I feel ready to just be happy and calm. If I cannot be calm, I have a bottle of wine on standby...ok, 2 bottles! I don't drink really, but I found one I love, so it's there if I need it.

It has been a lovely day, I haven't left the house, I haven't gotten dressed yet, and I haven't even brushed my teeth! Gross I know, but it'll feel extra nice when I am showered and brushed, dressed and ready to go.

I am not going to let anyone or anything get to me, I am going to enjoy Christmas for what it is to me and that's that. No one can take my beliefs away from me, so it helps to remind myself about that. I am very happy with how I feel, I am with the people I love the most and I will make that be my focus for the next few days. I will be happy - not even fake happy - I will be merry and I will have a great time. This might be the first Christmas ever that I truly feel happy about everything. My life is God's gift to me, and I will not piss it away being miserable. I am so thankful for everything that I have, my beautiful kids, my lovely husband, family, friends and a truly wonderful life!

Merry Christmas to you all - have a great night.