Everything happens for a reason

Do you ever feel like there is no hope, no happiness? I know, I have been there, and I can see the people out there who feel that way. I feel for them so much it hurts. I am so thankful that I am in a position where I feel like things are going to be ok, there is always something to look forward to and there is so much joy out there.


So many years I was in an anger fueled depression and I felt there was nothing to look forward to, nothing to be happy about. I have no idea why I was so angry, but I was, just so very angry. Ask my Mom, she could tell you. Even now, looking back, what was I so angry about? I was smart enough, pretty enough, I had two parents that loved me. They didn't always know what to do with me, but they did the best they could, and they did love me. I had friends, I wasn't lacking in food, or clothing. Where did all that anger come from?


A few years ago I had a very difficult experience and for whatever reason, that was the moment in my life that a change happened inside of me. All of that anger just melted away. All the hurt, the injustice that I felt, was just - quite suddenly - gone. By suddenly, it went away over the course of a few months, but because I had lived with that anger for so many years, that felt very sudden to me. I just started to let little things go. It was gradual, it wasn't gone in a day, but it really felt like it had melted, much like snow would melt over a few weeks. It trickled away and I was left with a feeling of hope and happiness. I'm not saying that anti depressants didn't help, because they did! I had gone through something awful, and I thought it would make me angry and bitter, but it had the opposite affect. I could see that my life could be better, it could be happy and fun. It was like feeling the sun on my face again after a long cold winter. Hope - it was there. I felt better every day and I am now a completely different person. I see the joy in little things, I look forward to things. My life feels so wonderful and it feels like it will just continue to get better.


I feel strong and powerful for overcoming my issues within and I have emerged a better, more hopeful person. I even dress differently - that's how much I have changed. In saying that, I am going to go shower, put on my cute new skirt and enjoy my "day off". I am going to do some errands and take myself out for lunch with a good book.


I hope that one day, everyone can get to the point where I am, if they aren't already. Good stuff is out there. Everything happens for a reason, take that bad crap that has happened and turn it into something positive. Make a life change - that change has just offered itself to you! I feel like a preacher, but it is so true. See the bad and look past it to what good can come out of it.


I will leave you with some wise words from wise girl - Accept the joy that can be yours. (Thanks Tricia, I will!)