Stress - Sleep = mild mental breakdown

I've had a few busy days, I'm in the middle of a soccer tournament during the week and the games are really late at night.  I have a game every night, with the exception of last night, I couldn't play because I had a meeting for the school.  On top of that, things are busy as usual, I don't have my own car because I sold mine and my new car isn't in yet - but I have to get all the paperwork ready for the new car.  I was just voted in as School Council chair and have lots to do for that, a handful of appointments, and I recently came off my anti depressants.

Last night I went to my meeting, the things I asked my husband to do didn't get all done, so I had to deal with that this morning.....and then I got a text from my Mom that my Dad went in for surgery....surgery that goes really close to his brain.  That just put me right over the edge.  I yelled at the kids, barely got them to school on time and then lost it on the playground.  My sweet friend Robin was trying to be nice, but hugging me just makes my cry more.  So I spent about 2 hours this morning crying.  I cried at the Chiropractor's office, in the car, at Winners.  I finally stopped crying just before lunch, but by then I had a massive headache that I just can't shake.

I took the day of from life, and as expected, it has caught up with me, already!  I need to get the laundry out of the baskets at least, I set up the insurance for the car, I haven't made supper and just thinking about food makes me want to barf.  I should really do the dishes, but I just don't want to.  I have to get rid of this headache before my 10pm game tonight!

So what am I doing now?  Avoiding all of it of course!  The good news is that I am aware of why I am upset, I know it will pass and if I could just get rid of the headache, I think I could be ok.  My doctor told me there'd be days like this.....

OK - off I go.  I will just remind myself that I am fine, everything is fine.  Don't worry, I am not having a full mental break, just a really small one.  I'm ok, I swear.  I sent a really mad text to my husband this morning and by the time I actually talked to him on the phone, I had forgotten most of what I was mad about!  My life is great, I am allowed to have a break down now and again.  Ok, I'm really going to go do stuff now!