Back to school

The kids went back to school today, grade 9 and 5, we got great teachers and I am excited for them.

As I walk away from the school, I feel a little bit lost.  Like 2 pieces of me are missing.  I know that I can run off and do whatever I want to do - like get bread, go to Walmart, get some groceries.....wait a second.  That's NOT what I want to be doing!  But it needs to be done, and it is always so much easier and quicker to do those things without the kids in tow, no matter how old they are!

But the first few days back at school, there is a huge sense of something missing.  Yes, they drive me crazy with all the talking and the fighting, the singing at my face, the weird noises they make because they think they are funny, the quotes from the Internet that never seem to end.  I walk away from the school alone, and I miss them.  I know it's silly, but I do.  I just want them back for a minute so I can hug them and kiss them and just be with them.

After a few days I will get used to the house being quiet for a few hours, I will get to drive and listen to the music I like, as loud as I like, without a yell to turn it down!  Or change the song!  I enjoy being alone, I enjoy the time off to do my stuff, and all that other crap that I have to do.  I will be so happy in a few days...but for right now, I am a little bit sad and a little bit missing the noise.

Don't worry, I will get over it, and I will love it and look forward to it.  Look at all the things I will get to do!  I can watch an episode of Orange is the new Black (LOVE this show) without having to pause when the kids pass through.  That show is NOT appropriate for kids at all!  I could watch 2 episodes and eat ice cream and do nothing all day long!  I won't.  But one day I really should!

I can paint my bedroom!  The paint was bought maybe a year ago and I didn't get a chance to do it yet. I can read a book, have a quiet lunch, go for a run, go bra shopping!  But today, I will just do the errands, maybe buy the kids some first day back cupcakes.  I will think about them all day and I will hug them and kiss them after school until they beg me to stop.  And then tonight, they will drive me crazy with the noise, and I will look ahead to tomorrow.

September always feels like a new start for me, and this year is no different.  But I think I will put that new start off until tomorrow, or next week.  Right now I will just miss my kids and count the minutes until I get to see them again!