Why I had kids

I've always known, from a young age, that I wanted children.  I knew I wanted them, but I could never really put into words as to why I did.

I always thought of why do other people have kids?  Some have kids because they think it will be fun, that they'll have a little person that loves them, a little sidekick.  Now we all know how judgmental I can be about people and their children, but I really don't think that many people really think about why they have kids, they just have them because it's the next stage in life.  Not all people feel that way, and I  think that the people who know that they don't want children, they think it through and don't have them for a reason.  I would never begrudge anyone that doesn't have or want kids - it's their choice.  But those people who have kids and then ignore them, abuse them, treat them like crap, or just don't really care about them - those are the people I judge.

Kids aren't easy.  A lot of the time, they are not fun, they are hard work, they yell and cry, poop their pants, always want stuff, your time, your money, your attention.  So why on earth do people think that is going to easy.  Any parent that says parenting is easy, they are doing it wrong!

That brings me to my point.  I finally realized why I wanted kids.  I always wanted someone that I could love and I could tell the whole world that I loved them.  It's like when you have a crush on a boy when you are a teenager - and you want to tell the whole world and the boy, but you just can't.  Or when you fall in love and you want to tell the person, but you hold back out of fear, just in case he doesn't love you back.  I can tell the whole world that I love my kids!  I can scream it from the mountain tops, I can talk about how much I love them all the time and I have no fear of saying it.  I don't have to worry if they love me back.  Even if they didn't at the moment, they would have before or will again at some point, and that doesn't change how I feel about them.  I love them so much it hurts sometimes.  I kiss them so much that they complain.  I hold them and look at them, amazed that they exist.  I love to talk to them and know all about them.  I love to hang out with them, snuggle them, and just be near them.

I LOVE MY KIDS!!!!!!  I have so much love for them, I have to tell people or I will explode!  I love them and that's it.  They will (most likely) never break my heart, they will never really go away even if they move away.  They will always be in my life and I will get to be with them forever.  They are everything to me.  They are the reason I exist, my meaning in life.  It's an amazing thing the love I have for them.  And that will never, ever, go away.  Now I must go kiss them because just thinking about them makes me cry tears of happiness.

ps - my spell check isn't working.  If I have spelled things wrong, its because I can't spell!